I’ve always found the “real men love Jesus” or “any dead fish can float down stream but it takes a REAL fish to go against the current” with that 1990 “extreme” fish symbol I’m a christian who’s not ashamed shirts to be well, rather lame! Then a friend pointed me to jesusbranded.com! I proceeded to order and continue to wear! Good stuff take a look for yourself! Yeah I get something for this but I’d a plugged it anyways!

It’s been awhile and I’ve honestly missed this place. As stupid as it sounds i just wasn’t liking the design so much that it was actually pushing me to not post. So here I enter with a “temporary” design that just feels better and will hopefully renew the fun that it started with. Besides life has been to good not to share. So if you’re here and reading this then check back for more changes and alot more updates.

“I repent of ever having recorded one single song, and ever having performed one concert, if my music, and more importantly, my life has not provoked you into Godly jealousy or to sell out more completely to Jesus!” — Keith Green

After reading a post on a friends blog & watching the accompanying video I just had to post it here as well. Regardless of preference, or you’re stance on music it’s hard to miss the raw emotion & passion let alone truth behind these lyrics. Read them and don’t forget to watch the video as well.

Do you see, do you see
All the people sinking down
Don’t you care, don’t you care
Are you gonna let them drown

How can you be so numb
Not to care if they come
You close your eyes
And pretend the job’s done

“Oh bless me Lord, bless me Lord”
You know it’s all I ever hear
No one aches, no one hurts
No one even sheds one tear

But He cries, He weeps, He bleeds
And He cares for your needs
And you just lay back
And keep soaking it in,
Oh, can’t you see it’s such a sin?

Cause He brings people to you door,
And you turn them away
As you smile and say,
“God bless you, be at peace”
And all heaven just weeps
Cause Jesus came to your door
You’ve left him out on the streets

Open up open up
And give yourself away
You see the need, you hear the cries
So how can you delay

God’s calling and you’re the one
But like Jonah you run
He’s told you to speak
But you keep holding it in,
Oh can’t you see it’s such a sin?

The world is sleeping in the dark
That the church just can’t fight
Cause it’s asleep in the light
How can you be so dead
When you’ve been so well fed
Jesus rose from the grave
And you, you can’t even get out of bed

Oh, Jesus rose from the dead
Come on, get out of your bed

How can you be so numb
Not to care if they come
You close your eyes
And pretend the job’s done
You close your eyes
And pretend the job’s done

Don’t close your eyes
Don’t pretend the jobs done
Come away, come away, come away with Me my love,
Come away, from this mess, come away with Me, my love.

Honestly, this is just an opportunity to get out some things that have been bottled up pretty tight inside. I’ve never found myself this deep into an inward struggle before. It seems as of late that no matter where I turn there it is staring me straight in the face. I can’t remember a time in my life that the prospect of who I’m to become and what I’m to do has been so urgently on my heart. I’ve tried to verbalize these feelings in my heart with no avail & as the tears roll and the sound of the prayer room lingers from the speakers of a borrowed laptop “Son of David have mercy on me, Son of David have mercy on me open my eyes that I may see” it quickly becomes the loudest prayer I can remember with no words leaving my lips “Open My Eyes!”

As I find myself engaged in this battle, on the inside something rises yelling “You’re Distracted!”

dis·tract·ed/dɪˈstræktɪd/ Pronunciation Key – Show Spelled Pronunc[di-strak-tid] –adjective

Have I become distracted in my pursuits again? Has my attention been diverted? Have I been rendered incapable of behaving in a normal manner?

It’s funny there is a vibrant life inside of me I can feel it. A life of joy, love, mission, power & impact. I know God has great plans for the future. I just want more! I’m not satisfied, not content & definitely not OK with where I’m at. Jesus please come I want more, I need more!

2 WEEKS LATER…

I find myself looking back at this non-published post & realizing that it’s really easy for me to get distracted with my present surroundings and circumstances rather than look to the One that has been to my future and back. I think all to often our idea’s and dreams of grandeur get in the way of His will for our lives, we almost get preoccupied with why things aren’t the way we see them with our eyes closed. So I come to this: “Jesus, My passion in life is to know you…” I set my heart to see my distraction turn into pursuit, my frustration fade to fascination! Jesus I want you more. Thank you that you’re gracious with me.